Mixed Emotions

I've experienced alot of emotions this week.

Excitement has been one of the main ones.  I am excited everyday that God has blessed me with this opportunity.  One thing in particular was very exciting this week.  I got my official letter from Papua New Guinea stating that they want me to come.  Along with that letter was a handbook telling me about the training that I will take part in during the first 3 months I will be there.  It gives me an idea of what to expect and different list of things that I will need to do before I come and list of things I will need to bring.  So naturally my mind jumps five steps ahead of where it should be and I mentally start planning so many things. 

However with excitement, also doubt has come alot this week.

As I think about Bible translation, I wonder if I can do this, since I know nothing about linguistics or what it takes to translate the Bible into a native language.  Also as I begin my Partnership Development I start getting overwhelmed with all the things that I need to do and how much money it takes to just start(especially since I only work part-time).  And I have a confession to make, I don't read my Bible ever day.  I know, you would think that some one going into missions especially Bible translations should read their Bible every day.  As some one who has struggled with setting up a regular quiet time each day, there are many times that I don't feel equipped to tell others why the Bible is important and why they should read their Bible every day.

I was comforted by words from Isaiah today.

Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
   I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
   I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
   they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
   you will not be burned;
   the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD your God,
   the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Isaiah 43:1-3

This is what the LORD says—
   he who made you, who formed you in the womb,
   and who will help you.
Isaiah 44:2

I pray that I will hold on to these word as the weeks go one and that they will help me push aside any doubt.

Please keep me in your prayers as I start to look for another part-time job.  That I will be able to find something that will work with my current jobs schedule.